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dear mr. president |
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so i feel like a giddly little kid and i can't wipe the stupid ass grin off my face.
and i keep listening to that Dear Mr. President song and talking with Laurie about government thing and it's making me want to cry.
the combination of these two emotions is kinda crazy.
but mostly i'm just happy now.
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| Dear Friends or friends of friends or anyone really |
[18 May 2006|12:07am] |
i was kicked out of my house.
if anyone wants to let me crash at their place until i figure things out, that would be great.
also, if you or someone you know is moving and needs a roomate, you should let me know.
i don't think i would need a place until like sunday. i don't take up much space either.
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| best way to start the day |
[11 May 2006|10:52am] |
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this morning before i work i went on a walk at the kirkland waterfront. it was perfect because all the ducks were waddling around the grass eating the bugs. it was the cutest thing ever
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[14 Apr 2006|10:15am] |
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i am a disaster.
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| serioulsy |
[31 Mar 2006|08:47am] |
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jenny lewis |
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i don't give a fuuuuuuck
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[24 Mar 2006|10:27pm] |
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my mother told me about my dad for the first time.
when i was 13 he wrote an extensive paper to the court explaining how my step mom and step sisters were a family,
and therefore he shouldn't have to pay more child support for my brother and i.
In the paper he mentioned my step sisters names many times, but never even mentioned my brother and i as though we didn't even exist.
My mom said the things he wrote would have been so damaging to my brother and i that she
destroyed the papers and just stopped fighting it because he wouldn't give up.
my mom won't let me tell my little brother and sister i'm gay, she says it's too damaging and they aren't ready to hear.
if it ever comes up in front of my dad he gets really awkward and sort of shakes his head and leaves the room.
it's causing me to lose and hurt a good friend.
my doctor says i really need to be on mood stabalizers and that scares me a lot.
it's sinking in that i really just can't be with sarah and she and i just aren't getting along right now.
i'm a fucking wreck. i don't know what to do.
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[19 Mar 2006|09:26pm] |
so i've been taking effexor XR for a few months now.
it's an anti-depressant in case you don't know.
let me emphasize that i have been taking it for quite some time now.
i haven't taken it for the last two days because i have failed to pick it up from the pharmacy.
This means i won't be able to get it until tomorrow.
for any of you who have been on this type of medication, maybe you can understand how i feel.
cold turkey off these drugs is similar to taking a mind vacation all the way to hell.
someone give me drugs so the spinning in my head will stop please!
thanks guys
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[17 Feb 2006|09:49am] |
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I LOVE BIG BRO TRUCKS!
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i'm a dog
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| good thing i'm addicted to soy milk! |
[02 Feb 2006|10:09am] |
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stephen malk. |
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so i am trying to be vegan or fregan or something close to the two.
yesterday was the first day and i accidentally ate goldfish without thinking.
goldfish are certainly NOT vegan.
i'm not so good at this yet, but i am trying. everything has animal in it.
chocolate is the hardest.
and ice cream.
excuse me while i go work my third double in a row today.........ugh
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| finally |
[21 Jan 2006|08:44am] |
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My brother called me yesterday.
for the first time in years and years he cried to me on the phone because he has finally hit rock bottom.
He admitted he is an addict and that he needs and wants to change.
he cried telling me how he has burned all his bridges and lost all of his friends.
he told me he has been like this for so long he isn;t sure he can change, he doesn't think he is strong enough.
he feels so guilty he isn't quite sure how to ask for help.
he choked on his tears while he told me he is holding so much inside of him, and that is afraid.
he went to my mom, and she wants to help, but has no money at all to do so. My dad won't help him right now.
I don't know about any sliding scale rehabs, but i'm going to look.
if anyone knows any, or other ways to get aid or help for rehab, feel free to let me know.
i don't know how to help right now, but i love him so much.
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| HEY FUCKERS!!! |
[13 Jan 2006|10:10am] |
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tegan and sara |
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I had my third and final interview at the fancy restaurant.....
AND I FUCKING NAILED THE SHIT OUT OF IT!
that is correct bitchs, i am an employed woman now.
5 days a week mon-fri for the lunch shit and hopefully dinners soon.
excuse me while i go buy white shirts and black pants!
also, did i mention i got a syck ass job today?
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| BABIES |
[12 Jan 2006|09:55pm] |
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my aunt and uncle had a baby today.
his name is Cameron Curry Lakin and he is perfect.
he was dreaming and making little baby sounds when we saw him.
and we saw his pee pee right after he got the tip cut off
i'm so glad i'm not a boy.
but basically it was amazing to see him and he is so beautiful and so perfect and i love him.
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[08 Oct 2005|05:33pm] |
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my baby kitty is getting an x-ray right now.
if it is a hernia, which the vet thinks it is,
it will $800-$1000 for surgery to fix.
or i can put her down.
Those are my choices, and I don't have $800-$1000.
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| WHAT DO I DO? |
[08 Oct 2005|12:14am] |
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So my baby kitty, Lilly (AKA Bodill)is very sick.
she has a lump the size of a golf ball in her tummy,
and she is pooping all over which she has never done before in a year.
SO i took her to the vet ($30 just for the visit) and he said we can't really know anything without a $150 x-ray, which doesn't include the cost of anything it would take to fix the lump.
But as the vet was explaining, it is most likly a hernia (sp?)which can only be verified with an x-ray and fixed with surgery that will probably be nothing short of $400 total if not more.
I don't have the money.
What do i do? I love my cat so much, she is my baby.
But Rene said she can loan me $75 dollars and she gets a 15% discount at teh vet for working at Petsmart.
(Rene is basically the most amazing person ever, i love her and so should you)
So this is a start, but i'm really sad.
SO please give me and my kitty all of your happy healing thoughts, and lots of love.
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| F-yeah! |
[13 Jun 2005|10:25pm] |
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I'm really excited about next year.
I really want to travel/volunteer in
some part of Latin America next year
and it is looking more and more hopeful.
I found a website that is based on
Latin American environmental volunteer agencies
that are smaller, for a good cause
and affordable.
I ordered a personalized guide book from
them where they will send me the contact
info for over 50 organizations that
are doing things i am interested in.
Whoa! this is going to be amazing....
PLUS
Sarah works with a girl who is
subletting a room from sept 1 to Dec 31
(i'm hoping to leave early Jan)
WHICH MEANS...
I won't have to pay rent while i'm gone
which would be amazing.
I really hope that works out with her.
Things are looking good dear friends, very good.
so wish me luck, and send me advice and love!
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[05 May 2005|11:17pm] |
I totally work at coldstone now.
i even got a sweet visor with the job! lucky me
so you should probably come see me and tip me a dollar
so i'll sing you a song!
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[13 Apr 2005|03:31pm] |
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my birthday is on sunday!
woo hoo for being 19 and still
probably being one of the youngest.
so give me love please!!
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[06 Dec 2004|09:53am] |
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fiona apple |
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Not being able to kiss my baby for a month is seriously torture.
damn those lip rings for turning lips all black and purple.
In other news, the worlds cutest dog is sitting on my bed next to me right now.
thats right world, i let an animal on my bed,
and oh lord she's cute, she has crazy eyes.
also i think i might cut my hair shorter and dye it red.
not red red, but a good red, just trust me.
although i don't really like paying for haircuts,
so if you can cut hair, tell me.
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